Yep, time to face the truth. I’ve spent far too much time in this life to date worrying about things that don’t really matter, people who don’t really matter too.
With regards to stuff, we collect way too much of it, and when we’re gone, it goes to people who don’t want it because they all have their own excessive quantity of stuff. I’ve spent some dollars and cents on attorney fees crafting various versions of my last will and testament over the years and I suspect there will be one more alteration coming that will genuinely be final. If any of the stuff I’ve designated as yours in the document really exists when I’m gone, well, that was because I didn’t get around to selling it and spending the money on me. Haha!! No joke though…I’m dead serious, and I’ll be dead so don’t AT me about it. Remember, it was the thought that counted.
Truthfully, most of the people in my current will might actually precede me in departure from this rock. That’s something to consider when allocating future distributions. The next and last document will likely include way more paying it forward than the current iteration. I’m still thinking. I’ll get back to you.
Meanwhile, another thing we tend to do as humans is to worry about the opinions of other people who don’t matter, shouldn’t matter, or couldn’t care less about our shit. We are – some of us because I know there are among you people who are perfect in their execution of life skills so I’m not talking to or about you who really know everything and have never nor will ever make any mistakes or bad decisions – we are, we basic normal humans who have grabbed life by the horns and the tail, sometimes at the same time, we, and I mean I, have given some of you perfect people power you haven’t earned and don’t deserve. Who are you to judge me when I’ve seen your own stuff fall apart on a regular basis with your odd tendencies and often unbearable idiosyncrasies?
We are each individually special and we need to breath and recognize that and be more true to ourselves.
We must free ourselves mentally and emotionally and LIVE.
People whose lives we touch in meaningful ways will be moved to tell our stories, speak of us fondly, and be witnesses to our effect on their lives, but those accolades are not why we must exist in what is perfect for us alone – it’s a side effect. We need to concentrate on internal peace and happiness because we cannot bring anything to a situation if we’re not comfortable with ourselves.
We have to be pleased in order to be pleasing.
We are each the ONLY person we have to spend ALL DAY being around so it is best to make sure we are someone we actually like and respect.
Conventional understanding of this life as we know it says, we get one shot at this.
It’s better to stretch ourselves to do, see, touch, taste, smell, and feel it all.
Be good to yourself. You may be the only one who does that.
I’m just writing out loud what I’ve been telling myself this year because of precious time wasted on things like these. This is also a reminder that anything that has passed is gone and there’s NOTHING that can be done to change it. Perspective can be altered and reaction to it when it crosses the mind can change, but that’s really it. Learn. Grow.
Getting hung up on past actions, inactions, decisions, behaviors, while often great for storytelling can stifle progress on other fronts. I’m saying…if I can’t use it to help me or you see value in the experience… I’m letting it go.
Stay tuned. I’m just getting started.